Is It a State of Mind?

What do you do when you have a bad day and you have no one to talk to?
Do you open your arms to the next stranger that finds you?
Do you turn on the stereo, find a good CD or listen to i-tunes?
I think I think, analyze and then think some more, that's what I do.

I remember and replay each moment in my life that lead me to here.
I recount each and every move I made through out the year.

I think of every conversation or whether the ones that aren't so painful to replay
I think of all the things that I didn't but should have or wanted to say.

I have sacrificed so much and in a sense given myself
And all I have learned is that you can't let someone else determine your wealth.

When the chips are low and you are close to down in out, take stock
It is not always going to be easy, but since you will go through a lot
Know that these ones will be there and will not judge you but those that are so easily swayed
Know that you they didn't have your back anyway.

They will pretend to and recount times when they did
But when you no longer benefit them they are gone quick
Then slowly piece by piece you learned about who they really are
Then you will wonder how you let it get this far

How you could be so naive
To sacrifice so much and then be deceived

Because we will all make mistakes that is just what they are mistakes
But when you learn about a person's core and it is not what you thought, you start to feel the hate.

The truth will always reveal itself in due time, that is a universal truth
So maybe you will waste time like my memories arrested in youth
But as much as it hurts today, I know there is more in tomorrow.
Wasting time is not the height of my sorrow.
Not getting what I still want, not achieving a goal, being unsatisfied it my pain
The difference between happiness and contentment, which are not one in the same.

This is what happens when you let your happiness depend on another
When you become so invested that from any slight mistake you can't recover.
All humans are imperfect but capable of love from the start.
That's why the bible teaches us to forgive, because GOD has a heart.

Happiness as a state of mind I don't believe.
Or is it a mind state that I can't achieve.