Caged Bird by ME

A caged bird only sings only one song, that is one like no other
It only knows that one song that was sang to him by his mother
He turns and twists, flutters and flies just as if he were free
But in his eyes the sorrow deeply hides, his soul in captivity
He longs for bigger better things, a home without any bars
The door is open, but still he stays, because his fellow birds don’t reach for the stars
So in he stays, never once does he stray, captured by his own thoughts
He sings his song and dreams his dream, forever in his cage they haunt.

It's Over

The pedestal has disintegrated.
No longer do I look at YOU with "child's eyes"
I was wrong but I am not the bad guy.
Even though I miss you, I can ask myself why?
Our difference is that I confessed to my lies.

I can see myself in so many situations.
I look back at the memories that no one can replace them.
Through the hazy clouds I can still see your face and then.
I smile.

I used to think that contentment lead to resentment, but no longer.
It's so cliche but in a sense I feel stronger.
I have found the one thing to finally quench my hunger.
I guess I am saying that I am okay that it's over.

Regret

I had a dream yesterday
and you were in it.
I had a dream yesterday
and I dreamed we were finished.
It started off like any other day
calm, cool, collective.
Then all of a sudden clouds rolled in
and I lost all perspective
I remember yesterday just like today,
it makes it all the more painful
All the memories come flooding in
and now my heads drowning full.
If I could turn back the hands of time
what would I change?
If I could erase the bad times
I would never hurt you again.
I would hold out my hands
never letting go and protecting you from harm.
I would laugh harder, care more
and be infatuated by your charm.
I wish it would happened differently
this dream of mine.
I wish it didn't affect today,
or that I could press rewind.

My Marathon

How many times have you said, "This time, this diet will work!" If you are like me then you know weight loss comes from a good diet and exercise, but for some reason you can't seem to put the two together. Either I exercise and ear horribly or I eat sensibly and don't move. This time I think I have found the answer, BALANCE. I switch to mostly unprocessed foods and organic fruits and vegetables, but I will enjoy a good burger every now and then, (more now than then). For exercise I have committed to doing something I have always wanted to do, RUNNING.

Now just note that my exercise routine consists of two things right now, looking for the remote and taking the stairs at work when the elevator is slow. BUTTTTTTT, I have committed to running a marathon 5 months from now. Okay it is a half marathon but that is still 13.1 miles. I am so excited. I think I can do this. And to make sure that I don't quit as I am prone to doing, I have enlisted half of my department to run with me. So of them were going to run the marathon anyway but now I am on the hook. I know that I am starting off in the beginning.

I have split my training into 2 parts: Training for a 5K and then training for the half marathon. The first part is just to get my body ready and use to running. So I signed up for the Race for the Cure in the summer (a 5k) to make sure that I am committed to this marathon and running. Secondly, I will beginning to increase my running mileage until that day in September comes and I will run my first marathon (excuse me half marathon). I can't wait to cross the finish line. I think I have licked the diet and exercise crisis. This goal for me is not about exercise (that is just a happy side effect). It is about achieving a dream and accomplishment. Now I can trick myself into eating healthy at the same time.

Today's Bring It Back...
Achieving a goal.

The Waistline

Okay... talk about longtime no see. When is the last time America (in general) saw their waistline. I (in great company I might add), like millions of Americans have fallen victim to a horrible disease. No not obesity. Nope not diabetes. Laziness. I could sit here and give you every excuse (oops, I mean reason) as to why I am fat but the bottom line is that all those reasons probably stem from well, being overweight.

In mind and spirit, I am not lazy. I am well educated and well travelled. Yet, I have a serious problem getting out of the bed when Top Chef is on. Why is it that I can sit and watch Celebrity Fit Club Bootcamp but can't seem to crack open those new Billy Blanks Taebo Bootcamp DVDs I just bought. Each time the show comes on I commit to doing at least sit ups during each commercial break. Then one by one the commercial come on and go off and each time I bargain with myself about committing to the next break. Then the breaks during the next show and so on. I work 10 to 15 hour day during busy season and yet in still I can find the time commit to these exercises yet no time to do them.

I admit when I had a trainner, I was more committed to working out. Spending money will do that to you.

Well America- I like thousands of others have decided to do a juice fast to jump start my weight loss. After doing some serious research I believe it is a healthy way to (1) rid my body of toxins (2) restart my metabolism and (3) lose fat. I am optimistic but I know it is not going to be easy. I have already built in a cheat system. If the fast becomes to unbearable, I am allowed to have an all natural juice bar or a piece of fruit if I commit chewing the fruit very finely. The whole idea here is give you organs and digestive tract a break so that they can focus on detoxing after all.

Don't know how long I can keep up the fast but I am going to try for one day, then one week, then 2 weeks and then 30 days. Realistically, I have committed to 2 weeks. We shall see who that goes. To ensure that I won't cheat, I have enlisted the help of a friend and of course I have all of you to be accountable to, since I had the bright idea to announce it.

I can't tell you how much I weight because that is just embarrassing. Don't get me wrong, I look good, as most 80s babies do, but I can stand to lose about 40 pounds.

Hey if JT can bring Sexy Back, I can definitely bring back the waistline.

Today's Bring It Back
The waistline